After months of questioning, doubting, over analyzing, thinking every possibility it was finally spelled out to me in black and white by a professional. I have Aspergers Syndrome. They even asked me how I felt when they said it, bit of a silly question to ask an aspie really, but I simply said 'relieved'.
Not so much a desperation for having a label but more just finding a reason. I do not like to accept situations for how they are, I need to know how and/or why. Even my parents have fully accepted it, which I must say is the biggest relief of all.
I have been virtually convinced that I have AS for roughly a year now, but being told has made me rather philosophical, as it wasnt really a shock out of the blue. Time to stop being all emo with all that angst and self pity, and to start the real journey of self discovery.
About Me
- Beastinblack
- Recently discovered I have aspergers syndrome. After years grinding myself down I finally have an answer to my shortcomings and my talents. I have the following traits: rubbish at: eye contact, small talk, maintaining conversation with NT's, get annoyed by: background noises ie people chewing, cars in the background, people talking in the background, extreme lights, heat & touch, changing situations,! never had: the knack for reading between the lines, the ability to see other people's point of view. good at: Music (I can play the cello, drums, and bass guitar), attention to detail, loyalty, deep thinking about the planet, cosmos, music, shapes, objects etc, and talking about them! secondary conditions: paranoia, anxiety, low self esteem. My goal is to find myself, accept myself for who and what I am and start the journey of self discovery. I believe it is the only way in order to face the world and make the most of it. My intentions tend to be misunderstood due to poor communication. I can be described sometimes as a moaning old git who acts like a five year old :) Oh yeah I love motorcycles.
2 comments:
They even asked me how I felt when they said it...
Ha, yes; that is a very silly question to ask an Aspie.
I wonder if asking "And how does that make you feel?" about everything gets to be almost reflexive for psych professionals.
Anyway, congratulations on getting diagnosed and good luck with figuring out your next steps.
is congratulations the right word? Dunno if it is or not!
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